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Just came back from the church family camp. Was wonderful because I asked God to give me a final push to do what He told me to, I caught a glimpse of the end product but it will take years of perseverence and faith so I challenged Him for it but honestly, the initial 2 days were in a mess. The speaker Kel Steiner probably had his call but personally, forgiveness wasn't part of my agenda (perhaps I haven't been bearing enough grudges) and I have received my spiritual goals quite clearly. But definitely, the turning point was the talk in the evening which prep all men for fatherhood (lol) and the message on the 3rd day on fasting. Yeah, fasting, why haven't I remembered that.

Ironically, when the church responded so fervently to the call to fast, the same group was similarly, if not more eager, expecting the all-you-can-eat durian party that afternoon. Quite a shame if you ask me, but who am I, a non-durian-lover to judge.

Ian's message during sharing was great. I hated it at first because it disrupted my time with God but I believe it was necessary. I got so much in tune with God and having His spirit talking to me throughout, I was overwhelmed. I got the calling to go up to affirm Ian's emotions but I hesitated. I represented someone else and I believe God wanted someone else, other than Pastor, Joel or Queen to affirm Ian. Truly, YC was fortunate to have Ian as a shelter and we should thank God that we can grow under Ian's umbrella.

Though my arena is Church (yeah, not Government), I believe my calling isn't KY. I'm still waiting for it to unveil. It'll take time I suppose, read through the introduction to DTS and Bible College and it's impossible to take a part-time DTS and Bible College? I'll need prayer from others and to prepare myself further.