Gluteus Maximus

My butt hurt the moment I woke up this morning. Must be the tennis session yesterday. My butt used to feel alright even after a marathon but then, tennis is a completely different story: my pace is controlled by the returned ball, and movement is not restricted to a single direction but any of the 360° around me. My back is hurting too, but at least it shows that I'm using the right sets of muscles

Ian gave a powerful message today. It was rather disorganised because, as usual, he spoke from his heart. But I was reminded during the service time (though it had nothing to do with the message) of how I used to feel and continue to feel now: that if I were to be taken up to heaven this very night, I'm pretty fine and happy about it (wondering if it is normal though)

I mean, I don't believe that my future is hopeless but nonetheless, I don't have a lot of things to look forward to in this life anyway. Trying to imagine how people will bargain with the Grim Reaper about death:

- I'm not married yet (comes up all the time in cheap drama series)

- I have my parents and children to look after (happens all the time too)

- My company will collapse (for our Founding Fathers, 'my company' would refer to 'my S'pore')

- I haven't seen the world yet

- I haven't enjoyed my wealth

I'm running out of ideas (embarrassed), so I know that I'm not any good at negotiating but honestly, all the things listed don't really concern me, or should I say that I don't find myself 'that important' (many may believe otherwise that the world revolves around him/her) and if God would choose me to die for the sins of mankind, I'd gladly do it: for the sake that it is better for 1 man to die that all the men to perish, just don't let me suffer on the cross because it hurts.

My Godma back in Japan scolded me before for such thinking, she said that there is so much more in life to enjoy and to experience, but I really don't know. Though I am enjoying my experiences everyday, I can also do without it. Will my parents be sad to find out that I think this way? I should think from the angle: Will I be sad if my kid feels this way?

I probably will.