Did pray that the week would be a good one, at least one which I can feel proud of, one that I wouldn't make mistakes at work, and even if I do, people will understand why I did it in a certain way.
Isn't it funny when I get the rod for someone else's miss? Not that it bothered me much because I knew that it wasn't my fault, and I'm sure my boss knew too. Just that it was the best excuse to say that it happened because I had little experience in handling things. Also received some telling-off with my boss, not our fault, not at all and I felt sorry for my boss. How to argue with someone who would insist he remembered something was mentioned.
But the worst blow came at home. Came back, was having dinner and Mum had to ask an unpleasant question. I was so prone to blurt, 'gimme a break' - kind of answer that I especially watched my tongue. And I was still questioned, 'why did you say that 'it's my business'?'
Did I? It can't be. I watched myself especially for that. But it's not the first time I get such treatment. And the concluding statement is that I forgot how to speak nicely to elders after staying 5 years abroad.
I am used to it. I was wronged in the army, etc. And it wasn't even the first time for me today.
Don't ask me why I can't explain my unhappiness about this place. Such things kill the mood to talk. You can worry all you want, because when I'm always in the wrong, the only thing to worry about is the one time when I let go and flare up.
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