Root of the problem

I think I've realised the kind of person I am. I can't really do well at work, at least not yet and I suppose I'm not really happy and this probably isn't the environment I can do well in.

Even before I entered, with me seeing the content of a retrieved email, I believe that I was not really wanted.

Upon entering the office, I was overawed by the capability of everyone surrounding me.

I fumbled so many times that somehow I am not sure if I could ever stand firm.

And I constantly feel inferior in the environment. Which affect my ability somehow.

Really, I'm not the Man U kind of player, I am the SWP kind of player at Man City. I can't be one of the top players, I thrive in an environment when I'm the star player. The more important I feel, the confidence and performance come along. Perhaps that's why I believed I did better in Unit than in OCS. Uni was so much of a struggle as compared to Sec Sch and JC. 

But since I can't leave this environment, I need to change. To find my worth within the Man U.