Zen

I'm too chilled.

I don't wish to say that I've reached enlightenment' and as Pastor was saying just now, it was all 'by the grace of God' but yeah, so 'by the grace of God' ....

I have never had a bad patch for a long time.

And I believe it's because nothing that bad has really ruffled my feathers.

It's quite hard to go to the extreme to seriously think of ways to kill myself so as to cause the least problem to others.

I shouldn't be complaining if everything is rosy but on the other hand, nothing really excites me either. As Heng Kwai was saying just now, it is the monotony that is hard to bear. Season to toil and season to rest, it may be time to step out and do something.