Don't want to go to work tomorrow

Sorry, had a horrible week at work, it could have been the volume, it could have been the changes, it could have been the expectation and it could have been the transition, anyway, just don't feel like reporting back to office tomorrow (or don't feel like checking the office mails later)

I started asking if it is as unappreciative elsewhere, but guess we are all expected to do a good job wherever we go. Perhaps, I am just disillusioned about the the way the organisation takes care of the staff, the training, the explanation especially during this phase of transition for me. While I was trained in Tokyo where people kill themselves for overworking, I was getting pissed about the week when I regularly finished my work at 8+, and everyone felt that it was normal.

I hate the lifestyle, and with that, I tried to flee, albeit just mentally, that it was such a holiday when I studied in the overseas for a few years. The thought comes especially when I read about the advertisements on the papers about 7D6N Disneyland Tokyo, or 10 Day Hokkaido Gourmet, kind of travel package. That hey, I should have used my time there in a better way. Darn...

More than 2 years since I got back and I'm still counting down everyday to the last day of my bond. I have a lot to complain, and sometimes I feel justified, sometimes.

Then there is the Sundown Marathon next week, I would not have such apprehension if I have the Sunday free but it will be the SLD weekend and Sunday starts at 9am. I'm not sure if I can run 42 km since I didn't train at all, and when I tried to run today, I was disappointed that it was only 7++ km between Sembawang and Kranji (no I didn't run back because it would be too boring). I'm still undecided about running next weekend, I feel fresh after the run but I'd hate it the moment my legs start to hurt and it was at the 24km mark last year.

Sermon today, I thought the big hoo-ha about Fireproof was a little too much. Ian delivered a difficult message today, it is difficult to deliver accurately and more difficult for the congregation to truly understand, but I guess he did quite well. Just that it could be contradictory sometimes between what are being preached at various weeks. I do want to visit other churches, just waiting for invitations.

When can I take a break, really take leave~ My DD is taking the first week in June, my Branch Head the 2nd and 3rd week, my understudy from the end of the 2nd week to the start of the 3rd week, and I still have the part-time arrangement at my new workplace. Life sucks sometimes, and well, I ask myself all the time: "what's my purpose here"

I don't want to go to work tomorrow (how many times have I said this? lol) Miaw is going to tell me off I think, my brief sent to her at 8pm on Friday was not forwarded for clearance so there must be something wrong. Haiz...