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Had come in earlier to office to hit the gym but got lazy and reluctant to move once I sat down in front of the computer. Seeing the completion of mail migration that I had activated last evening (1700 out of 2300 mails successfully migrated, not very useful), I thought I might as well update my blog.

Yes, it is the last day of 2009 but I'm too lazy to reflect on what I had done over the past 12 months. Some highlights would be my horrible worktrip to Australia in April when I had to sit through a 6-hr long meeting with only a notebook and pen to take minutes, my tennis trip (on impulse) to Japan in October and the recent mission trip to Cambodia.

Towards the end of the year, I got to see so many people coming back: Lynn, James, Joette, Zoey and soon my brother will be back too. Not to mention that Ankit was lamenting how he had missed his gay buddies. Eileen in her teary photos when she had to leave Roger behind for a few months abroad. And it amazed me that everyone seemed to be so happy back in Singapore and wouldn't really look forward to leaving it. It's interesting for me because I had always looked forward to return to my apartment in Japan, I was fine with carrying my luggage back home alone, I was cool about waking up seeing no one and returning to a house where there was nobody. The word "family" was alien to me (Godma was wonderful but it's not like she was with me 24/7) and that could be why I had managed to survive Japan.

But little by little, I began to sense why my friends call this place "home" and miss it when they are away. It could be because I have gotten the kind of relationship with my parents, and with friends, and finding the balance to serve while working to earn my keeps. I had never wanted to stay home for too long because there would be conflicts, I didn't know who I should trust because I can't blame anyone for betrayal, I didn't want to serve because I was afraid of being blinded once more.

But through 2009, something had changed, for the first time in many years, I don't look forward to escape elsewhere but am looking forward to make a difference now that I'm here. Well, it's a good way to end the year =)