栄光の架橋

Running 84km isn't just about arrogance and vanity, it certainly takes commitment in preparation. Have been waking up early to do my runs before work and this song by Yuzu just came up (it was the Theme Song for Athens Olympic Games in 2004). 

While I'm never going to reach anywhere close to an athlete, I could understand the lyrics of the song.

There are tears that won't be shown
And there are tears that no one will ever know
It's definitely not a smooth journey
Yet I have made it to the end ...

作詞：北川悠仁 作曲：北川悠仁




誰にも見せない泪があった　人知れず流した泪があった
決して平らな道ではなかった　けれど確かに歩んで来た道だ
あの時想い描いた夢の途中に今も
何度も何度もあきらめかけた夢の途中

※いくつもの日々を越えて　辿り着いた今がある
だからもう迷わずに進めばいい
栄光の架橋へと…※

悔しくて眠れなかった夜があった
恐くて震えていた夜があった
もう駄目だと全てが嫌になって逃げ出そうとした時も
想い出せばこうしてたくさんの支えの中で歩いて来た

悲しみや苦しみの先に　それぞれの光がある
さあ行こう　振り返らず走り出せばいい
希望に満ちた空へ…

誰にも見せない泪があった　人知れず流した泪があった

(※くり返し)

終わらないその旅へと
君の心へ続く架橋へと…

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During the meeting in the afternoon today, I felt a sudden chest pain. It hurt for a full minute and then it'd subside for a while before hurting again. It wasn't the typical muscleache but I felt that my heart was being squeezed and it also affected by back and shoulders.

I recalled the run this morning, but it was the same pace and distance as last week. Told Darius and I'd return to office first as I wasn't feeling well but I was restless for 1+ hour. It hurt rather badly and I did a google on chest pain and cardiac arrests. Fortunately, it subsided almost completely at 5.30pm or so.

I chose to see the doctor and left promptly to Tan Tock Seng. Sms-ed my Dad and Taf that I'd be heading there because of chest pains and I was completely at peace. Thinking that if anything would happen, I'll need to tell them about my shares over here, my account over there, etc. I wasn't afraid of dying, but I'd hate to hear the doctor telling me that I can't run or play sports for the rest of my life.

Registered myself at A&E, took the Blood Pressure, ElectroCardiogram, X-ray of lungs, etc. Dad came and joined me but there was no panic at all =)

The Doctor gave the assessment that it was probably due to tears at the inner muscle walls from physical exertions. She said that I should worry if the feeling was like being stepped on by something heavy, breaking down in cold sweat and being out of breaths.

I guess ... My Heart Will Go On