Choice

Thanks to Merv, I can't fall out from my ultra-marathon anymore and some people would be expecting me to wear the 84km finisher tee come June 2010.

But yeah, it is difficult for people to understand why I had signed up for such a torture. But after 3 marathons, struggling through 42km to earn a finisher medal doesn't provide me with the kick anymore. Being a poor swimmer, I doubt I can ever do a triathlon (and the road bike costs a bomb). So instead of running an ultra when I hit my 30s, I felt the need to stretch myself a little more while I'm young. Yes, I don't love my body as some would suggest, but I need the challenge more than my legs lol

Which brings to a slightly better understanding of myself too. I just can't stand indecision, and this was probably the reason behind the "ok, let's do it!" process of my Japan and Cambodia trips last year. Well, making the decision to sit on something is a decision in itself but in general, I just get restless when I sense the "so, what to do huh?" atmosphere. And sometimes, I get frustrated seeing things like I probably can't do a post-grad this year and can't decide when I should make a start.

While it may sound good, it is something to be worked on. How to be empathetic when I see "indecisiveness" taking place. I guess home would be a good place to start.