マイ武勇伝

Met up with Queen over lunch the other day and at the end of the conversation, she commented that I do have a sense of clarity over things and the level of maturity to handle them.

Was lunching with my colleagues and I took this stand that rich parents don't necessarily represent poor parenting, such that all in all, it's better to be under rich parents rather than poorer ones.

Had talked about the issue of money and parents with Merv last evening and I reiterated that really, the only way for me to go overseas was to get a scholarship.

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I do have a switch somewhere, one that will change me from the reserved, intellectual young adult to one with warped ideas and doing things just for that split second of all round guffaw. But beneath all these, I am mature, or so I think.

I told Queen that I missed my younger days when I was more 'immature'. Really, I miss the days when I did things on impulse, then crash, and then picking up the pieces and grow in the process. Not to the extent of drugs, booze or sex because I had good grounding through the years of Christian teachings but those were my own 'legends' nevertheless.

I guess everyone has to grow up one day or another. People tend to be more forgiving when you are young and I can't imagine myself leading that kind of reckless/gung-ho life right now. Guess there isn't much entrepreneurial spirit within me.

And as the day went by after the lunch with colleagues and as I was talking to Merv, I'm sincerely thankful that my parents couldn't afford to send me to Australia or anywhere else. It sounds weird but I could never have led that kind of wasteful, reckless, or 'high' life if I was spending my parents' money.

Good or bad experiences, those were my precious growing up years and made me the kind of person I am today.

I look at my brother and I can't imagine myself studying in NUS or NTU. Not that they are horrible schools but I'm sure I'd have turned out very different if I were to have done my tertiary education here. The sad thing is: I could be doing better in school and earning more if I had a less legendary uni life in Singapore.

I suppose I can still enjoy those experiences by observing how I handle things. Being more sporting and taking more calculated risks than others are probably glimpses of my 武勇伝.