Disgust

It happens once in a while, when I'm tired of rules and structures.

To put it simply, knowing that I've promised to join in an activity or having signed up for a marathon, should I still subjugate myself to fulfill these duties/obligations when my heart isn't there? I seldom ask myself this because it doesn't happen often but the reasons are clear, I believe.

Don't look at the preparations, don't look at the efforts. Take for example a planned trip somewhere, having paid a few hundred is one thing, but if at that point in time, I don't feel like making the trip: it's better for to waste that few hundred than to proceed and feel uncomfortable.

Guess I need less responsibilities imposed by people, but more responsibilities that I will gladly take up at my own free will. The life of a wanderer.