Agony

Didn't have a peaceful time today, let's say that in the midst of the joyous occasion, there was an unsettled spirit inside of me. And at times, I was even bitter, yet I also know that when I look back a week from now, such things would have appeared so minor ... but still

It started off since yesterday I supposed, upon the realisation that my weekend would be gone with all the helping etc. I had said it times and again that I wouldn't want to miss any segment due to the fact that I'm helping out but it hasn't been working. As Joel had said today, I, too, would enjoy one where I'm just another invited guest.

And after completing the set of slide for work this morning, I was seriously unwilling to attend service. Simply because I hate wearing my office attire out. I could have made it slightly more special with blazer and tie but it wasn't easy taking the train in it ...

Then I saw the number who missed service... and those who didn't have to dress up because they had left their things in their cars. I must admit that I had felt bitter then. Why isn't there a family car? Anyway, almost none of the guys bought their own car, so why... I must say that I hate wearing shirt and pants on a weekend. Cos I wear it half the time in my life over the weekdays already and it isn't comfortable.

Became the receptionist and towards the end, it was nice to see some aunties. But I do wonder how it's like not having to help out in any way.

Mum also made a silly demand today. Blaming me for not introducing someone and because of that made it awkward for them too. Even a third party was stunned and commented that Mum was too direct. I just find it ridiculous ... and ya, it wasn't a good weekend for me and I will return to office tomorrow, trying to show love to all I get to come into contact with