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I have always thought that I have known my folks well enough and it's amazing how much more I can still learn. Ok, it's not something positive and while it is too late to expect any change, it is still applicable to me, in the way I build a relationship with my kids in the future.

I was blessed because all my needs have been covered by my parents, since the day I was born. Yet, I still found it hard to ask for things that I want or receive good things from my parents because I realised that I seldom received them from a joyful giver.

There were times when I was younger and would ask my parents for certain things. They would usually give it, but at times, also with the look or words of disapproval, that they don't appreciate what I want. And it's more hurting when they didn't try to appreciate the soccer ball that I wanted but would see it as a waste of money.

I guess I knew it all along, and slowly but surely, I stopped telling them the physical things that I want. I suppose it didn't help that I stopped receiving money from them since I graduated from Junior College.

It's a regret, albeit something small and people may even find me ungrateful, but I am learning from this. That in future, it is not just the material things that I provide but it is more important to grow with my children, to love Ben10 or Barbie as they do, and then move on to idol groups like Girls Generation and Fahrenheit when the time comes.