My yandao brother can be irritating. Not the Stephen Chow kind of irritating but one that warrant a 'Fxxx Yxx'. Now that he started his internship at MOT, he has been coming home drained and getting yaya about what he had to do, etc. I understand that too, getting excited that we are doing something meaningful to earn our keeps, rather than studying what had already been thought about and theorised in school or uni. I was overawed too, the first time I sent a gift submission to Minister.
But I was offended when he analysed what he was tasked to do was just wayang, started to compare me with his boss and defined my work 'slack'. As much as I jest that I am an 'underachiever' and 'having a low CEP', I know my work was one of the tougher ones (which also makes it interesting), and as in result, I appreciate the work of others knowing that work is tough; as compared to being cocky and ask what others do to brag that my level of work is higher. My yandao brother probably started with good intentions (fingers-crossed) but I heard it differently.
I guess, the fact that I come home later but looking fresher than him is indicative of my ability rather than an admittance of my low productivity. But he wasn't convinced. I rested my case and let him know that if he would end up as a teacher, he would be able to compare the pros and cons of working in the Ministry with getting operational.
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It reminded me of (quoting Ian) the difference in capacity within each one of us. I was joking that the catch phrases for my church are: 7 Arenas, partnership with God, declaration, 'rise up', this generation, salt and light, that we can so easily include them in our prayers but do we always recognise the magnitude in the words? And are the words too strong at times. Are they relevant? Just like some organisation that likes to use words like: the whole-of-government approach, to connect with the people.
Pastor was describing this end-of-month-event and shared her sorrow that generations of Young Adults were lost and that the Young Adults are so complex now with their faith. (Quoting Pastor) When the Father heart of God is really so simple. That we come as children to receive freely.
I can't say no that faith is simple, yet it is not conclusive because it can also be complex. I know Pastor is anointed but I can't agree with every line that she says. What Pastor experienced 30/40 years ago had been much more simple than what we are facing these days and 30/40 years from now, I will be running away from the even more complex problems that my children will face.
Take the example of IP Piracy, it is definitely wrong and we didn't pitch it that way? Rather than giving the response that 'it is something the older generation doesn't understand' so 'you should pray and seek by yourselves' since your Pastor doesn't understand it fully. Yes, we should teach a man to fish but I was disappointed by the lack of enthusiasm to study the matter. I am sure my parents are not into piracy, they don't even have to care, do they?
And on the 'pink dollar' issue, we get so prophetic that Singapore will end up in a certain way, etc that I'm afraid we get too 'one-dimensional' if we don't read up and analyse things by ourselves.
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Came home after 12 after my birthday, and had a minor tiff with my Mum. I can't stand her naggy voice, not when I am tired and just want some quiet moments to de-stress (chill) and to retire to bed for the night.
The issue for the day was 'Thou shalt keep your Identity Card at home to prevent its loss'
It is my habit to keep it in my wallet and sometimes, if I change my habit to place something elsewhere, I end up having trouble looking for them. This was what happened to my pass.
Anyway, Mum's paranoiac reasons were simple - it may be lost, used by people to borrow money from loansharks, we may get harassed. So ... as long as you live in this house, you have take responsibility for the anxiety of your parents, and put it in the drawer. She continued to talk about some robbery she read in the Zaobao and also tales related by our neighbours (talk about The Kampung Spirit heh)
This is not the first time and I have a few approaches:
a. Let Mum nag till I relent and do as she wishes.
b. Lie that I have already kept it in the house. Mum is not convinced and check and see (a).
c. Ask if she's implying that I should leave home (to add oil to the fire), and see (a).
d. Say good night and retire to my bedroom, ignoring the issue altogether.
Joe Chean spoke on Sunday to honor our parents. I look at the clock, it was 1am.
(c).
Honor your parents in the days of your youth.
Parents, do not antagonise your children.
(c). Final Answer
I think I have a case. Please note that my Mum was already sleeping when I reached home and she was awaken by my dog and not by me. She woke up and chose to risk a quarrel for the fear that the family will be harassed by loansharks in the event that I lose my IC. We always need to balance our consideration before we turn them into actions, but my Mum had been too pampered or I'd say, not used to such consideration since we are such model kids.
I came home the next day and received the silent treatment. Well done. Dr James Dobson will probably condemn me to hell, but I don't see it as my fault. Even if parents, simply by the fact that they are parents get to start the game at 2-0. I will still risk my neck to challenge them on this issue. I believe I have a case, even before God.
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Enough of my rants, time to try clocking 20km. Otherwise, I won't be able to run in Sundown.
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