俺のことは嫌いのか？

Was dozing off throughout the day which was bad because I had to sit in for two meetings. Still had to take notes for the second one but the good thing was that it wasn't such an important meeting and Afian might just be able to help out a little.

Anyway, went for the lecture on "Why Buddhism and not Hinduism?", a study on why it was Buddhism that was brought from India to China and how it eventually died off in the country of its origin and yet became popular in China. Anyway, met Kee Pang there and had a tough time chatting on the way back. It's not easy chatting with an old friend who is quiet and not too spontaneous, he is a very nice guy but I found it tough to find common topics to talk about with this OCS mate of mine.

Came home and read the last book of 東京８０年代. It is not so much as writing about the 80s, because the focus is very much on the university lives of Japanese youths and I could relate to it. And with that, I couldn't help but wanted to draft a letter. Knowing that I might not be able to send it out, I still needed to do that.

お久しぶり、びっくりした？近況を聞きたいのはもちろん、簡単の元気かい？と聞くのもおかしいし、深く聞くのも杏ちゃんは引くだろう。だから、昔のことは自分にはとりあえずそれでいいだろうと。

俺のことは嫌いのか？

俺は次の恋愛をしたいんだ。ただ、杏ちゃんより好きになれる人はまだ見つけていないだけ。自分は杏ちゃんのことが好きなんだけど、昔に戻るとは思わなくて、ゼロから出発したいなぁと。遠距離もあるし、どんな計画で今こんなことを言うのかと聞かれても、ぶっちゃけはっきり言えないけど、言えるのは今の自分はきっと１年前、２年前の自分より自信を持っていて、未来へのイメージも頭の中に強めてきてる。

OK, end of emo-ing for today