YC Anniversary

Looking back, I guess I do like to challenge myself: Going to Japan was my decision, signing up for marathons, going through OCS just for the ceremonial sword ...

But I do have Out Of Bound areas where I will not venture into: Triathlon (knowing that I can't do a competitive swim), Singing (since I took after my Mum instead of my Dad) ...

I guess there are certain people in my life like Jael, who will drag me into this Out Of Bound territories, with me screaming and kicking, but have to thank her eventually for pulling me through the ordeal and giving me the experience ...

Some background ...

I thought I just had to sing a few lines after leaving church last Sunday for the anniversary

Then it was 4 bars of "entrance" on Thursday

With each words of encouragement (minus Jael's), I felt exploited. Because words such as "Oh I'm sure you can do it!" or "Jia You" felt so empty. At least Jael took time to give real advice.

Then I slowly realised that it's not so much of people's confidence that "Brian CAN DO it" that had resulted with me being given the role; but it was the confidence that "Brian WILL DO it" that mattered.

I started to wonder, is it the kind of trait I want to show others. Although spiritually, following Jenny and Mel's prayers last Sunday, to the gist that "may the Holy Spirit give Brian the strength to do what is required of him", I couldn't say no (disclaimer: I heard from the 2 that they had no idea I would be doing such a thing as they said the prayer LOL)

But it became clearer, that it's not so much of a character that I want to show people, but being sporting is just part of me. I guess "WILL DO" is a higher compliment than "CAN DO", because no one CAN DO everything, but WILL DO signifies the attitude that I WILL DO something even when I CANNOT DO it (under the normal circumstances).

Ok, I'm getting confuse myself, but anyway, thanks Jael