Well, I didn't accomplish much today, and didn't attend any meeting. Was telling anais on our way back that I'm probably an overstretched rubber band, such that it's not returning to its original state anymore.
I wonder if I had brought this on myself, taking up this and that, attending this and that, ... It is so tempting to just retreat back into my cave for a moment and I miss the 2-month summer breaks that I had back in university. I can spend an entire day in the swimming pool, just floating around (not swimming)
Basically, I can't/don't want to think anymore. I can still do mundane stuff (such as fire-fighting) but not the strategic stuff, not when things change within days. Weekends don't feel like weekends anymore with activities piled up, perhaps this is why I enjoyed my training runs (time alone to myself).
I wish I am on my way to Washington now, I could have until my boss felt it wasn't necessary. I agree with her but how I wish I could still go and leave things aside for a moment. Just the long flight would have been fantastic. I'm just glad that we are not playing tennis at 7am this week since I can't even wake up for work these days ...
Sorry if I looked stressed, during work and even after work. I just wish I have the time to do things I like. Guess I just need someone's shoulders where I can rest my head on, without having to say anything.
Boondock Saints
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